Hi, herbi is back.
Words from the emotional Aquarius rat.
There are so many things left untold for the past few months, i once thought when i am back here again, i will be telling the wonderful tales i had, but i am wrong once again. It is sad to have a birth date so near the CNY, something which i have been telling my friends. For years, my birthday is forgotten by people, especially friends you thought they were.
It may be disappointing to realize how many friends whom you never forget their birthday, and maybe even celebrated with them to actually forgotten yours. But I've learn through these years that, sometimes you may not reap what you sow, as friendship is like any other relationship, is must be a two sided commitment.
This year it is the same, some friends are too excited with their cny holidays that they actually will not remember your special day, if you look on the bright side, that should be the excuse, we will skipped going into the other side details.
Some friends told me, "you doesn't sound very happy on your birthday", i can only give them a cold smile as i would like to disagree with them, but i guess they manage to caught a glimpse of the sadness in my eyes. A couple of things happened before, it might not sound encouraging, but i guess it is part of the learning process called Life.
My birthday wish? i wish the next time i had this wish, i will have nothing to wish for.
PS: i wish you will be happy, my friend, and i promised i will try to be. :)
The missing pages tale: On this day 24 years ago, a boy was brought to this world, happily as he can be. Today, the same old boy has grown up, he who once lost his smile a couple of years ago, who once wonder why his world suddenly grew so dark and cold. An angel appeared in his life not long ago on a Tuesday morning, taught him the hard way that life is just full of ups and down. She guided him the pathway to light, and left briefly after. He then found himself surrounded with this warmth light, and thought that he'd finally found the holy thing call happiness. But yet, it fails him again, he fell down once again to the chilling ground, struggled to pick himself up. He knew that this time it is no one's fault and laugh at how the evil "time" is toying him. Affinity has brought us together, after years of searching, i never knew it was this near. However we have face the greatest barrier in life called time. You have made your decision, however cold and harsh to me, i respect it. It is a great fall, but don't worry, i will be OK. As what doesn't kills u, only makes you stronger. I know it might take you years to heal your wounds but don't be afraid, i will not tell you that I'll be waiting forever, because we both know forever only applies to feeling that is lost. But i promised, when you feel the time is right, you know where you can find me.... be it whether it was ever consider as a beginning a not, it was a beautiful dream.
Your friend always too,
munching the chocolate cake :)