Got kinda pissed off lately by some weird blogger error, keep getting "HTTP Status 503 - Servlet NewFrontend is currently unavailable". Was unable to post any stuff as well as edit any blog contents. But somehow i found out that instead of using www.blogger.com, use www2.blogger.com seems to work out fine. That explains all the stuff i missed, and something funny about this error is that, most of the people getting it were singnet users and lately had some window patch updated. We were thinking that it might be another conspiracy of singnet trying to archieve something haha, ya singnet and their people behind them, u know who they are.
This week, I was told by someone, that inspiration is not what is needed for blogging, its just the simple will of sharing your thoughts that makes blogging interesting. I've agreed to that :)
Alot of things happened this week, haiz, feelings still the same though, work load getting heavier, starting to feel the stress, but thats not my main concern. Things still not working out, and i still couldnt break the barrier. However my concentration is finally stabilizing, i am still working on it, i am sorta affected deeply by someone these few months. The problem, which is kinda childish, something that might be resolved easily if its not me. But seriously, this problem is here because i was trying to be someone else.
Its still down to me in the end, i am not a humorous guy, always seen as a quiet guy or if u are to put it in real world term, might be a boring quiet nerd. The truth is i am just not a good speaker, while i am trying to change that, it seems that i am making it worse. I guess this is a stage where every quiet guy will go through, being detest by people because he appears weird as he is trying to open himself more. I guess it's also because i am practicing it with the wrong bunch of people. Kinda make sense, most people will find it weird if he don't even know that person in the first place and that guy is making some weird comments. Haiz but i don't really have a choice, didn't have much time with my own bunch of friends. The worst thing of all is i screwed up my impression to someone really important to me, thats my main concern lately. I cant do anything about it, because of this feeling, that you are afraid to cause anything more to go wrong. I'm kinda stuck..
Times up for me soon, in the end, it might never work out, but still i wanna try something. I am not afraid of failures, but afraid of regrets. For i tasted it before, bitter, and it will poison your mind for the rest of the lonely nights. Things might not work the way you want it to be, but at least you attempt to do something about it, and thats enough... at least for me..